I’ll Admit it….There Was Whimpering

So getting to 18 miles today was tough, to say the least. I got hit pretty bad with a cold this week, even missing a day of work, and wasn’t able to do any sort of midweek training. I was hopeful that getting the rest would make it so the cold didn’t progress. That seemed to have worked, but I still have had lingering symptoms, mainly sniffling and coughing that I imagine is going to persist for a bit longer. 
Nonetheless, in addition to just being antsy in general, I made myself get out for my long run. I tried to start out as optimistic as I could, given the circumstances. I thought about giving myself an “out” and cutting my run short, if needed. I actually felt alright this morning relative to the days prior. Since I knew I wasn’t going to be in top form I headed to the Minuteman Bike Path so I at least wouldn’t need to deal with hills in addition to the coughing and sniffling. 
I felt pretty ok until about mile 12. I have no idea why, but my legs completely tightened up and I was actually in a lot of pain. I tried some of the tips from our lecture a few weeks ago, but actively trying to ignore my legs made me think about them more. I need to work on my strategies. I learned some things about running soon after/still with some symptoms of a cold:
– All the sniffling you thought was finally manageable will no longer be manageable because running will make your nose even more sniffly. 
– You will cough and wheeze while running and, as a result, everyone you approach from behind will turn to see who’s coming because you sound like the last thing you should be doing is running. 
– There is not enough water in the world to make you feel satisfied and hydrated. 
– Gu is even grosser than usual. I’ll spare you further explanation, use your imagination. 
– There’s seriously not enough water and you will contemplate eating the dirty snow (fortunately I talked myself out of that one). 
I honestly can’t even tell you what I thought about during those last 6 miles. Maybe that list, I guess. More than anything I just so wanted it to be over. So much so that, I kid you not, the last mile I let out whimpers. Like an injured animal. They were such little pathetic and audible noises and I truly had no control. My legs were just in a lot of pain (and my “old” heel injury started acting up, further worsening the situation). I think I might have been dehydrated. I drank so much water all day yesterday and even this morning. So much so I had to take a quick break early into my run (thanks Lexington Visitor Center!) 
Anyways, being post stretch and shower I’m feeling a bit better. I’m thinking I might have made the poor decision to tackle the full 18 today, but it’s over and done and we’ll see what I’m feeling like tomorrow!


In other news, my fundraiser is next Wednesday, March 12th 6-9 pm at The Fours restaurant on Canal Street in Boston!! I’m getting wicked excited and there really are some great prizes. Hope you will be able to make it and feel free to bring friends!



http://www.crowdrise.com/spaulding2014bostonmarathon/fundraiser/kirbymatthess

A Slippery 17

New distance PR!! 17 miles!! You’re going to have to bear with my celebrations the next few weekends, as well. Will be hitting 18 then 19 miles. 

So yesterday I went out on the course, running Brookline to Wellesley and tackling the  Heartbreak Hill area in Newton.  I got going around 8 am and even though by the end of the run, dare I say I was hot!, the morning was all about ice skating. I honestly have no idea how I didn’t fall. Everywhere was black ice and I wasn’t the only one struggling. 
The slick conditions definitely put a damper on my pace early on, but by the time of my turn around the ground felt a lot better and, to my surprise, so did my body! If you recall, I was having a hard time with 15 miles a few weeks ago. I’m happy to report that these 17 miles did not bring with them the same awful feelings mid run. (I didn’t once contemplate calling a cab!) Despite the morning ice, overall the route was much easier than a few weekends ago. It also really helped being on the course with so many others also out for their long training runs. Lastly, I made a pointed effort to pay attention to my mid run intake and kept to the “one Gu every 45 minutes” rule.   Oh yeah. I also got a high five by a man in a gorilla suit. Now that I think of it, I’m sure that was what made all the difference. 

Anyways, it was a wonderful way to start my weekend, feeling great hitting my highest mileage to date!  I took one “action selfie” mid run but OMG was it terrible! I may have felt great but I kind of looked like someone who had just been through an exorcism. So needless to say, that pic did not meet the cut. My end of run smiling pic did, however, and that’s the one for me that is most encouraging. If I can smile after 17 miles, I’m ready for my 26.2 mile photo finish 🙂

Head Games and a Run to Nowhere

Not the easiest of mantras when you’re tackling 13 miles on the treadmill. But let me back up a bit… (And by the way, this is the closest thing to a “gym selfie” you’ll ever get from me. Though it amazes me how many guys use those types of pics on dating sites. And how many are taken with people blatantly watching on in the background. Anyways…)
This has been a crazy week! I had intentions of doing a post earlier in the week and then the days have just slipped by. So here it comes, all at once, in one fabulous posting!
Tuesday Dr. Carter, one of the psychologists at Spaulding and a marathon runner himself, gave us a talk entitled “It’s All in Your Head.” This was a very welcomed topic coming off my recent distance PR of 15 miles, at least 3 miles of which I contemplated calling a cab to pick me up mid run.  Essentially we covered some of the mind games of running and strategies to overcome that dreaded “wall.”  I’m looking forward to trying out some of the techniques. I think a big one for me will be positive framing – “wow, I just ran 10 miles!” Instead of “ugh so many more miles to go…” I also think refocusing thinking is going to be important. As my mileage increases, while I respect the need to be in tune with your body, I am finding myself beginning to focus on fatiguing muscles that really aren’t a concern they’re just, understandably, tired. My continued thinking about that tired feeling makes the sensation even worse. I am going to try and redirect mental energy in other ways. I’ll have to figure out what works for me, as many of my teammates run with music but that’s really not my preference. I’ll keep you all updated on what I work out. I’m thinking I just end up telling myself weird stories. One perk of growing up an only child, I can generally find ways to entertain myself, even in my head. Ha!
Going in to this weekend’s long run I actually wasn’t expecting I’d have to pull much from this lecture. Only needing to run 13 miles this long run was a small “fall back” compared to last weekend. Then the snow had a different plan. I heeded my parents’ advice (or was it an order?) to not run on slippery unshoveled sidewalks or down the center of busy roads. That really left me few options and to the Y I went, mentally preparing myself for my treadmill distance PR. 
I will very cautiously say that it was not as bad as I expected. Mind you, it still kind of sucked (especially miles 10-13) but I got through it and am happy I did. I don’t want to start falling into an excuse pattern because this cause, this process and this accomplishment just means too much to me. Distraction was easy since I watched a few episodes of “Project Runway: Under the Gunn.”  I know, there are athletic feats of indescribable proportions going on with the Olympics, but what can I say? I’m motivated by caddy fashion designer banter. 
The next few long runs have me going 17, 18 and then 19 miles, so I am really REALLY hoping Mother Nature cooperates and I can enjoy the outdoors for those distances. It feels kind of cool, in a weird way, to have tackled the treadmill like this but I will take hitting the road and the fresh air over a run to nowhere any day!
My last little diddy is about my awesome day yesterday on the mountain. Training for the marathon has significantly limited the times I can get up to my ski program, the New England Handicapped Sports Association (NEHSA), to teach on the weekends. I was so happy to finally be able to head up yesterday and much to my excitement a patient I had worked with in the summer was who I would be skiing with all day!

This was Jeff’s third time on the mountain and he was skiing the mono ski like he had been out way more often than that. It was such a privilege for me to spend the day with him and to see and hear how far he had come since being in Spaulding. While I believe Jeff’s successes since his injury are all accounted to his hard work, motivation and self-determination, it still made me really proud to spend time with him outside the hospital and feel that at least in some small way Spaulidng helped set him on this awesome path. The people I get to meet through my work inspire me every day and I, once again, was able to reflect on how honored I am to be running the Boston Marathon for Spaulding Rehabilitation Hospital. 
So yeah, it’s been a pretty great week. I’m rounding out this long weekend with a lot more fun to come and a crazy busy social calendar the rest of this week that’s making me kind of question when I decided I was so cool and could do it all. Guess coolness just kinda happens 😉